“Ugh,” he says, “family and FB.”
Douche, I think. He’s on the phone with his cousin explaining his divorce and he has IM’d me in the middle of it but is too distracted for more than sporadic sentences. I’m annoyed at him for losing interest in me. He has mentioned the cousin is hot, then that she is too cool to fuck. This takes the cake.
I have been moved down the totem pole by the simple act of saying yes. Two days ago he was all over me for as many hours as he had available and then, when I finally caved and said, What the hell, come on up and we’ll see about this thing: flatline. Meh. I can’t be bothered with this. I have no respect for men who can’t remain genuine friends with women they’ve slept with, and when I realize he is camped out in this particular hole in his ego, I crawl quietly away from facebook under the guise of needing to sleep.
Rule #1 goes like this. If you would like to sleep with me, make me feel like priority one. Is that hard? It doesn’t seem so to me. As soon as I’m interested, as soon as I put that surrender flag out in the snow and say alright, I might like you a little after all: do not mention other hot women. In this particular case I don’t much mind their existence, but accepting reminders of them while I contemplate opening up the delicate gates strikes me as demoralizing and tacky.
“Aaaannnd,” I said to him after the too cool to fuck comment, “any chance of sex with me just flew out the window.”
“Hahaha you’re funny,” he replied. And then I imagined smacking his face through facebook and commenced crawling away. He’d been trying to have sex with me for a couple of days, and trying hard at that. Which makes me...uncool enough to fuck? And oh, I am a terrible hypocrite because he is totally my disposable guy, the booty call I can fuck up a little and then move on from while I wait to have my shit together for the guy I’m seriously interested in. But, I have no interest in being informed that I play the same role for him.
No. Thank you.
Ha! Guys can be so dumb. *shaking my head*
Posted by: Miss Ash | 12/20/2009 at 07:17 AM